Despite her fairytale moniker, things have not always been butterflies and rainbows for Australian producer Alison Wonderland. In fact, she’s made it her mission to be as honest and forthright about her struggles with mental health, emotional abuse, and battle with anxiety and depression as possible. As such, her new album, Awake, exposes the deeply personal experiences and struggles she’s overcome, through its raw lyrics and a channeling of unequivocal emotion.
But now, Alison Wonderland’s opening up about her experiences with an emotionally abusive relationship, her battling of both depression and anxiety, and getting to the point where she was at a place in her life where she had considered suicide in a new interview with Viceland.
“I was completely disintegrating,” she says, holding back tears. “It was a very tough time. I wasn’t eating. I wasn’t talking to anyone. It was literally destroying me. I couldn’t remember what was good about me, I couldn’t remember why anyone would even like me. I couldn’t remember why I was even here, and at my lowest point, I tried to kill myself.”